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Friday, January 30, 2009, 9:38 PM
Friday, 30January, 09.Woke up at evening again, so.... gave school a miss again. But next week onwards, i must go already. Otherwise someone gonna nag, haha just kidding. Computer chat with baby and he went to bath whn he's out, he came over my hse, sis open door for him while im bathing. Tot whn he reached we could go out, end up we nua at home tgt till 10pm plus cab dwn to cine to meet val and co for movie. Bought the tickets shw started at 11.40pm, went to eat and thn waited for sokcheng they all came and thn up to acrade and show started... watched the alls well ends well and after shw, cab dwn to boat quay while val they all sat baba car, they went drinking. Baby and i left earlier, cab back to his hse acc him bath and back to my hse. Was almost 5am by the time we reached my hse, both of us are tired but cant slp! And whn baby and i was entering our dreamland my bitchy koh shuiching called and both of us woke up! =\ and..... we couldnt get back to slp. Talk talk talk till morning the sun is out, i fell aslp and so did he. Slept for less thn a hr and i woke up went to change and go pray my grandma. And baby went home. Now, its my turn to wait for baby to be up! Haha, super miss him! Lols, its still early! 1.46pm only, guess im gng to slp also. Baby and i have been doing pretty fine! ;D 250109, I dont knw whts the future gonna hold between us, but i hope things will remain like this for now and in the future? Thursday, January 29, 2009, 11:21 AM
Althought sometimes something always occur into our life our friendships, but now im feeling so no mood tht you girls neglect me alot. Esp you tricia ang, we are kind of seldom meet already! And my seldom is really very seldom. Hmmms, but i hope everything still remain. I knw both of us have alot things to update to each other? And jessie neo is another freak, but she nvr fail to reply my msges, my msn, and at least she got the tiny heart to call me! And lastly, even how often we dont meet, hahaha. We'll still meet in the sch, so its not a pro ahneo! ;D this gonna be the last year for us already? I knw, everything will still remain, wont they? Lols, and my dearest kahleng i miss you alot alot x10000000000000! Same goes to you scb, cherie. I've alot alot alot things to update you, seriously. And as for shuiching, we've been meeting up almost every midnight, so i think its not a problem. I really need you girls to spare me sometime please! LOL!I feel the emptiness... 4:56 AM
Thursday, 29January, 09.Yesterday went out till late, slept at this morning 4am plus, so i gave sch a miss. Woke up at afternoon almost 4pm! Poor baby was waiting for me till super long! Haha, online chat with baby and thn went to bath and he came and find me. Rot at my hse and 8pm plus hong an finally came, and went to 684 for dinner. Pack food for my sis and back home! Now, im rotting at home. Tomorrow i must must pull myself to sch, no matter wht! ;D Bf off to mac's grandfather songka, and im stuck at home! Bored, imissyou! Sigh, i pity someone! Whose so kaypo to knw my affair with whoever! Poor you, go care abt your own stuffs lah pls? Thks. & sorry for all those late reply of tags, im so super lazy lah! :X Chole: Silly girl, i still rmb you alright my dear baobei! Hahs, im not sad already, i'll be happy okay? No, you cant esp jessie, she'll be very high one! Haha, call me out soon okays? Loves. Esther: Okay, i'll add you in msn soon and we shall chat over thr. And, i knw you miss me alotalot! ;D Ahneo: Pls, she just wanna make you happy only lah! Hah. Elizabeth: Baby, i'll be happy de alright. And i knw you'll be thr for me! Love you! S for shawn: Oh dear, haha. I gonna link you soon okok? :D Passerby: Ni kua le ma.(: Linnlinn: Hmmm, no idea. Either bedok or tampines. You're? PSH: Why cant be lame? You gt problem? Shut up :x Passerby: Hmms, you so wish to knw? Ask him thn, lol. Liling: HAPPY CHINESE NIU YEAR too ahling! Got angbao? Muhaha. 250109, I'll love you for as long as i can. Wednesday, January 28, 2009, 2:12 AM
Sunday 25January, Monday 26January, Tuesday 27January, Wednesday 28January.Woke up at i also forgotten wht time, and computer for awhile and thn bath prepare and sis and bro acc me dwn to J8 to collect back my G900, so happy can! Bus dwn, and went to take, thn acc thm to have their lunch and bus back home! Computer rot at home! Start dinner at almost 7pm, this year special special, we've ahgong to eat tgt with us! ;D And after dinner at around 9pm plus, im such a lucky girl, lol. Bf came my hse to acc me, lucky he gets along well with my bro and sis, lol, they play cards and talk cord, and 11pm plus went to bath and liling came over our hse, and someone complain i prepared so longgggg, actually it was superly fast alr. And thn liling, sis, bro, bf and i went dwnstairs chitchat and 1am plus bf cab dwn back to mac's grandpa songka. And sis fren, ivan came and fetch us, we went to fetch ivan fren justin first and thn off to parklane to eat talk and everything! Left at 3am plus, and reached hg went to find bf before i go home get changed and off to genting! And find him for less thn a hr, back home to prepare! Left at 6am in the morning! Its a monday, cab dwn to near bugis thr to take the bus to genting! And, One, Two, Three, Four, Five, Six, Seven, Eight hours of journey, Tadah, reached genting! Lol, the journey was sleeping for me!;D Went to check in hotel, after tht went to marrybrown had lunch and thn ring jiayang up, im always the bad girl, doing the calls, sis said she find it weird to call him! Roar, thn he dont knw said wht, so we went shopping our own first, thn me and sis went back to hotel to slp! Sleeping till so happily, inside my dreamland, hahah. Thn suddenly jiayang appear in our hotel, i felt so weird so woke up and wash up and thn he join me and my family for dinner! Thn after dinner we acc him to shop ard, he so troublesome, i hlp him choose his everything okay! Say thks? Acc him back to hotel, we were like clown, i must say..... he dont knw his hotel room, and sis me and him go all over the 6th floor press bell and see see here and thr, fucking like so dumb can! Lols, thn finally found alr. Thn went to buy movie tickets, fuck thm. 3:30am show, superly late. So.... he came over our hotel first, sis and him talk big, end up see thm slping! And, im so kind enuff, i went lobby to call bf! Haha. Wake thm up at ard almost 3am thn wash up and off to the movie! Underworld 3, shws end and was already 5am plus in the morning. He went back his hotel and us to our hotel, sleeep, sleeep, sleeep and woke up in the afternoon, sis and mom they all went off to eat first, while i alone at hotel preparing! And, dwn to find thm they still eating, mom and sis said jiayang didnt picked up their call, so i tired my luck i call twice and he woke up alr. Power right? Haha, thn walked dwn to his hotel, waited for him prepare and everything, thr goes our day 2, we went theme park to play, along with jiayang's sis, jiawei, and their cousin, jiamin! Bought tickets and thn went to play, day2 are all playing, i'll upload the photos whn ive it. Anyway, thse ride were scary! :( After theme park, back to jiayang's hotel to take money to return us, and their jiamin and jiawei didnt followed us, we went to walk ard, and went to buy tickets for believe it or not, walked ard and thn 9pm plus he went off le, as he taking 11pm or 12am bus back to spore. Sis me and bro went to buy dinner and back to hotel to eat, and.... sleeeeeeeppppp! And the very next morning, we sat 10am bus back to s'pore! And hours and hours, im back to s'pore! Daddy came and fetch us back. I miss my lovely girls, and i miss my bf too! I wanna treasure this love, be it last or it doesnt. Saturday, January 24, 2009, 10:26 PM
Saturday, 24January, 09. Sunday, 25January, 09.So friday mignight after blogging, went to make my hands, paint pink, superly in love with it! Lols, after tht star came and fetch me at ard 2am which was counted as saturday already, thn headed to plaza, waited for everyone to be okay, bike only got 3, so xingsi me star xiaobai and another two, we were the last to reach while shuiching and the rest cab dwn to buy the tickets first. We were fucking angry, laughs, we tot was at cine, went thr inside lift already, called buidi they all said was at ps, wtf right? So, headed over to ps. And was late for the movies, watched love matters. Very nice show, to me. Haha. And after the show went to geylang eat, and after eating they dont knw heading to macperson thr to play billard, and zhikwang called, he was being nice, he wanted to come and fetch me, but hear me sit bike he kind of drop the subject already, lol. So..... i waited and waited thm billard till i gave faces, imagine sitting thr till morning for 3hrs, and finally at 9am they're done. The sun is out manzxzxzx! And star send me back home, after tht reached home wash up and i straight lie on my bed sleeping! Woke up at night, ate my late dinner and went to hg grn pass eugene disc and thn meet curry rice and zhikwang, and followed thm like a idoit! And when back to hg, i went back home, charged my phone as it battery low. And went out again at 2am plus, off to 684 find shuiching, and i saw my dearest korkor thr, we'd a lil chat, as he's gng in, sad case. I kept telling him, 'korkor, its been super long since we last met, last contact, last talk, dont you have things to tell ur super long meimei?' he very smart, kept quiet but whn he talks, his mouth like mouse! Wondering whose the person, its jimmy! :X lols, and thn tht bitch jiawen called, acc him go eat and back to find shuiching and home swt home! Out with the old, in with the new. ♥250109(: Friday, January 23, 2009, 8:41 AM
Friday, 23January, 09.Yo! I'm so happy, lolol. Last night slept at 5am and thn woke up this afternoon prepared and mrt dwn to bugis, met my cousins thr and i went to collect my maxi brown and grey contact lens! ;D saw xnas, said i change already, nvr call him! Haha, yeah, fucking long didnt saw him. Thn over to bugis street meet my another two cousins, thn to street walk walk, bought 1dress and a set of sleeping cloths, so cool! Haha, thn walk and walk, and left at almost 9pm, mrt dwn to tampines, i bought a dress at tampines again, bought 2dress tdy! Bought a pink and black nail polish, cool man! And 4clips, haha, thks to my cousin! Love you! And, bus back to hg, went cousin hse for awhile to take my cool cool pink ear piece! And, so im at home now. Gonna update a lil and star gonna come fetch me to hg plaza thn to dont knw whr watch movies with thm later on. I find my fucking sis real boliao, i dont care whtever is it lah, he wanna see me anot im not interested lah please, i fucking find you boliao lah bitch, nabeh. Fucking irritating sis ive got. Your wanna enjoy at genting ur pro lah, i dont even wanna go. So lame, everytime telling me he doesnt wanna see me blablabla, fuckyou both lah, cheebye! 12:16 AM
The married minnie and mickey, fucking in love with it. ;)
Thursday, 22January, 09. Woke up by tricia's call and went to on computer chit conferene with her and curry rice they all, after tht, went to prepare and curry rice and co at my hse dwnstairs waiting, so went dw . Thn slack and we walked over to zhikwang hse, he was super poor thing, sleeping yet xianfu kept making him, not only xianfu, yuntian also! Haha, okay lah he deserve it too right? He also kept making me one, so no different. I'm poor thing too. Around 5pm plus, tricia cab dwn to zhikwang hse here to meet me. Thn jiefu ring me up, as the night before he said will call, and thn i soon bian ask him drive me to bugis as i wanted to get smth, end up, we acc him to get a digital camera at sim lim tower /square. And thn he drove us to dinsey naturally! We had fun thr and ate thr, bought alot things frm thr this time round, so i didnt own tricia anything alr. Right? Haha, thn left at quite late? 9pm 10pm plus and drove tricia back to bedok meet her bf and jiefu bought me to east coast, we went thr catch bearbear, super cute! ;D but i love the wedding one the fucking most, but he didnt want to gimme! Haha, br right its for me one okay! :X And, he drove me back to hg meet zhikwang and co, my phone was flat, i ring zhikwang up as i can only rmb his number, end up i call for 3-5times, all the times he said till so cfm tht feilong they all was at his hse, so jiefu drove me thr, we like idiot, turn round and round, end up i see nobody, fuck it. Thn jiefu went to drive his daughter, elaine after tht we sat dwn at 684 talk, and thn he drove me back to zhikwang hse dwnstairs again, he gimme vincent no, so i called, end up, equal might as well not call, fucking pissed off, i swear. And, i fuck care, i walked hme frm thr, and i quarrel with thm, i told thm they took me as clown, dont you? Whtever, fucking angry, fucking pissed off. And thn, forgotten wht time hongan ring me up thn acc him go 684 eat thn walked over to hg park chit chat, after tht back to 684 meet choonlu and jiawen, and was tired and all of us left at about 5am, and home swt home straight away slp. Everytime you near me, i wanting to hug you so tight... Wednesday, January 21, 2009, 2:57 AM
Thursday, 22January, 09.Okay, back to update. Went to meet cousin, and walked ard mall and bought things to eat and thn bus dwn to tampines mall to shop, non caught my eyes, fuck it can. Thn bus back to hg point to find feilong and co for awhile, while my cousin went hme. Slacked at point and i was fucking pissed of with tht fucking someone! Nabeh, okay whtever. I shall not made myself angry with ppl like you, totally useless! Midnight 12am plus bus dwn alone to grn to meet shuiching, as she kept rushing me to meet her, thn thr was only she and kaizhang. Thn went void deck slacked, theodore came, and shuiching and kaizhang cold war? No idea? So... they talked for very long, and finally star came and meet me, i wanted to play his fucking lousy bike, hahaha. Who ask you not to let me play! ;D and thn, ahbee, star, me and shuiching sit dwn and talked whn theodore and kaizhang left, kecik came not long ago followed by nana, and star and ahbee left, thks star for lending me ur full battery! Haha, you knw wht i mean. And, four of us sat dwn and do nth? Laughing non stop only? Lol, thn wanted to go marina barrage, but got no car, as bike only can sit two ppl! So, i fucking ring my jiefu up, hah. Like wht jiejie told me, he wont lent his laopo de, so... which means i failed! Thn, sat nana bike, while kecik and shuiching cab dwn. Had quite alot funs? And was rather superly cold. Kecik trying to be gentleman? Took off his shirt for my bitchy, laughs. And left at about.... 6am plus! And, im now at home. 7am in the morning, i guess im not gng sch, my head gonna burst anytime, so headache! Gonna go take a nap and ltr still got alot mre of things to do? I needa go bugis get smth, and to disney naturally too! Promised tht thickskin girl to bring her thr before it close. Nights folks! ;D Misses ... 2:56 AM
Alright, i'll update this just for the sick of my dearest girl, she wanna me update my blog! Well, i went to sch alone tdy, all alone. Lucky, ive ppl to acc me to msg. And, i slept at class all day long, even during recess, and the prefect were really so perfect tht they didnt asked me to go line up in the hall like they always had do so, hahah. So, i was feeling unwell whn i woke up at 12 noon, so i went back home, rot at home and watched my twilight, and feel asleep at the very last part, sis off the tv and off to bed i went. Slept for awhile and woke up at before 6pm to get prepared and now, its almost 7pm and my cousin are still keep me waiting! B-O-R-I-N-G, you knw? I gonna go hg mall shop shop, and gng to tampines to get something, i wonder if thr's enuff time for me to do all the shoppings? Okay, hck said if he passed his car test or smth, i can follow him anywhr, hahah. And, i gonna be the first to sit his car? LOL! Tomorrow is thursday, time passes so fast, gonna have steamboat soon, weeet! My favourite, i love it! And its really so dam fast, monday and im gng to genting, no thse mood to go at all? Anyone wanna replace me? I rather stay alone in s'pore thn go genting nw, at least i can go find all my frens? And, i gonna say, im so afraid of staying at home now, theodore feilong they all are so scary, everynight ask me to open my hse door, ive got a phobia already! Im so afraid they gonna appear infrnt of my doorstep again, and i'll being pulled to go slack tgt with thm again! Hohoho, forget to mention, today i'd a long heart to heart talk with my precious girl, kahleng, talked for almost 1hr, thks for hearing out my grandma stories uh, haha. Its been quite sometime since we last met, gotta catch up with each other soon alright girl? Love you! ;D Tuesday, January 20, 2009, 8:21 AM
I always told myself, mircale will happen sooner or later, does it? Day after days, i still believe tht you had be back and we'll still be tgt like one, our heart tht skips tgt, us standing in the same places and alot alot, but sigh. Could it be all my wishful thinkings? I'm really afraid of being alone, all alone in the darkness without your love, your care and everything. You knw, we'd always beg for each other forgiveness, each other to be back, but now? Even thought, i dont always see you everyday, but my love for you still stay tht strng deep in my heart, do you knw tht? I guess, its really totally impossible between us, but i hope tht, a mircale will happen, and last of all, could we go to all the places and do all the things we wanted in a wishlist last time? Will you agree to acc me go all the places we wanted to go in the past and complete every single things we wanted to do last time? And, maybe after everything, its really time i shld let you go already, its not very nice and good to hold onto smth tht is not yours, whts more, you belong to someone else already now, my dear. I cant be so selfish? But, no matter wht, i'll always love you. 1:13 AM
Monday, 19January, 09.Nothing much to blog? Ive no idea wht to update either? After sch, met tricia at point, end up i got zhikwang, curry rice and warren, me and jessie dont have the mood to go over. But still we pull ourself over to mac, thn all wanted to go bugis, so i was being pull, if i go ahneo jiu go. So i said, unless gimme go home change! Thn ahneo back home to change while the rest of us went to kopitiam eat first, after tht, some idoit, zhikwang came and made me, struggle me and thn my face now leave a beautiful scar. Finish eating, warren drove me back home to change and prepare and they waited dwnstairs for me, and im done, ahneo was in the car already? Lol, thn off to bugis. Tricia and ahneo do most of the shoppings, while me warren curry rice and zhikwang went walking tgt. And i swear, zhikwang like clown like tht, hah. Keep disturbing me non stop, like a idoit! Thn back to hg, no sun already, soo... i sat on zhikwang's bike. I cant believe tht i can put everything behind and we happily talk and play like nobody bussiness. Ahneo went back home, warren drove me and tricia to mall, shop for her fren bday present. After tht slacked at mall outside for awhile. Tricia left to find ahwei, soon bian lobang me and curry rice to zhikwang hse thr, while he ride his bike, before zhikwang came, me and curry rice do some heart talking, hahaha. Thn he came, we stopped. And the three patheic us slacked till super late, and thn they gng to get some money frm frens, so i walked off and zhikwang shouted me. Thn stay at home wait for thm to be back, like hrs and hrs lidat. And thn, while i was talking on phone with tricia, my beloved korkor and co was so cute, first, he called me, ask me to open my hse door, so i went to do so, end up, all of thm appear infrnt of my doorstep, at tht moment i was lost, i sibeh paiseh, luckily i was waiting for zhikwang to be back, otherwise, i might be wearing my home cloths! Haha, thn they pulled me along to dwnstairs slack, after tht they was waiting for curry rice and zhikwang too. We wait day and night day and night, finally, i gave up. And, the moment i reached home and wash finish face about to slp, they called and said zhikwang and curry rice reached already, so i tired pulling myself dwn again, like a clown. Superly cold man the wind blowing and blowing non stop, my kind korkor lent me his jacket, and tht cuteeee hck, went to pull smth over and ask me over to sit thr, and the smth cover us through and not tht cold anymre, haha. The rest walked over to zhikwang hse dwnstairs while i sat his bike, reached and waited for him to sent curry rice home and thn we contine slack for awhile and left home, he's super cute. Now, everyone is following zhikwang words! Lol, he took my phone home with me, made me chase him and he did some funny funny things at his neghbour outside! And reached home, 6.30am. Slept till i just woke up now, its 5:25pm. You knw, i'll nvr wanna be tht close with you, i nvr wanna the history of us to repeat, even tot its good tht both of us are now happily back as one, but all our frens are saying we're like a couple, making each other non stop, maybe it seems like, but you knw, we're impossible, i dont wanna thse feelings to be back too, im very afraid the feelings will be back, i promised i'd wait for someone else, and i'll mend my promise. Sunday, January 18, 2009, 11:48 AM
Okay, i guess im feeling much better saying everything out to him. It takes me alot of time to typed out every single things, alot of courage to sent it to him. My heart aches so much, i still have alot mre to say to him, do you knw? I've yet to finish doing things tht i had plan nicely to do, ive left no much time. By wednesday, every single things shld be done and thursday, every single words to said. And by thn, we'll be back to as normal, i dont knw how will i react in further whn i see you? Perhaps, i'll start to avoid things around me? Do you knw how much my heart aches when i said i wanna you and i to be the closest fren since thts the only way? I was crying whn i was typing tht out to you, i hope you would feel thse tears i shed for you while trying to tell you every single things. I've got no idea wht's gonna happened? 26th January are getting nearer and nearer, i dont even dare to dream of wht tht day gonna be like? I dont have the mood to go genting anymre. Who wanna replace me gng, i dont mind giving you go.I tired pulling myself through.... 4:10 AM
I feel very terribly pain inside, im lost of words to say. I feeling so crazy, ive so much to say, do you knw? I feel like expressing each and every words out to you very badly, but will you still bother, i wonder.Saturday, January 17, 2009, 1:57 PM
I've lost the game, i've lost you too. Goodbye, my love. I can't forget about you, but i have to now? I'll try my best to do so. Its hard to forget all tht we had all tht we used to be, its so hard to forget everything. I'm tearing here while blogging, i dont knw how shld i really express it out of how i'm feeling, but i swear to you people, the feeling of having this kinda of feeling, it totally sucks to the core. Everytime you're near me, my heart beat skips so fast, each time i walked /sit beside you, it take me alot of courage to talk to you, alot of courage to be the one to text you. Today as you walked pass me, you touch my head, you talked to me, i felt so happy. Tht was the first time after all this cold cold four mth plus you talked to me. Now, my effort are all gone dwn to the drain, i really really hope, one day you'll be back, i pray hard every night as i lied dwn on the bed. It pain my heart hearing wht others always update me. I'll miss thse grp of people always teasing me making fun of us by singing thse stupid songs to hint you about me still loving you. I really hope tht time could return back, i'll definitely make good use of thse old good times, now ive so much regrets, my heart is really pain, really very painful to hear tht bad news frm surrounding people. How i wish for tht all these are all in my dreams, tht i heard. How i wish everything will nvr come to an end anbd could you turn back, i hate to see your back. I tired holding back my tears, but i failed to do so... have you all ever wonder you loving someone so dearly and the pain of losing thm is so unbearable! Totally so unbearable, sighh. Wake up your sense please jiaxin, everything's too late, everything has come to an end, its time to give up on smth impossible. But everytime i think of you, think of our happy moments, i just can't forget about it. I still wanna us be like the past, of how much we'd missed each other during thse long long break. How tight we hugged each other, i rmb. Do you? As time goes by, i hope i'll be better. And, i'll stop blogging for the time being too? Ive run out of words to blog, i dont knw wht to say about my life anymore. My life is just so incomplete without you, my dear. I hope, you'd always rmb me, for i'll always rmb you deep dwn in my heart. Still, i love you.... 我讨厌阴天的风 冷得那么刺痛 只有你能够抚平所有的寂寞 昨天的风筝在角落 被谁丢到了路口 我很不想让你找到离开的理由 每一夜闭上眼睛 我看到了恶梦 你微笑但是旁边的人不是我 天空切开一道裂缝 直接割到我心中 不想装作脆弱 也不想爱得懦弱 其实我非常爱你不想失去你 难道我没有权利说我不愿意 你给了他的吻 虽然只有余温 可知道我多渴望抓住你的心 我知道他很爱你你怕他伤心 我每天假装开心害怕你离去 可不可以任性 求求你不要去 藏在我心里最后一句 其实还爱你 可不可以任性 求求你不要去 藏在我心里最后一句 其实还爱你 Thursday, January 15, 2009, 6:42 PM
Just yesterday i on my old computer to search for old photos of tricia's birthday during 2007, as i wanted to post her birthday photo for year 2007 and 2008, but as i search through it, i went to see chat log on my old computer, and i reaslise of how you got my number, i slowly scroll dwn and see thse chat logs as we're frm frens to siblings and to lovers, thse chat log are all stuck in my old computer.... and now, i realise its totally impossible between us already. After knwing you got a new girlfriend, kinda of not feeling good, but wht to do? Now tht you really have a girlfriend, i'd gonna give up, for im not gng to fight over tht girl to have you back, even if i do, i guess i'd lose. At first, i tot everything could be back as even it takes a long time, but now, i knw, its totally impossible, all my wishful thinking. All the best thn, take good care and everlasting to you both.All the old good times we shared, i'd always remember deeply frm my heart. 5:35 AM
Short and simple, one and for all, and i'll nvr go brood over all this anymore. I dont knw how am i feeling. But all you've to knw is, doesnt mean tht i kept silence, does not mean tht i dont care. I really dont knw, guess im numb by every single things already. I dont care wht other wanna say or gossip about me anymre, cos i knw myself, thse tht gossip about me are ppl around you, not me. People around me are all treating me very well. At least they're not unreasonable, they dont act like nothing infrnt of me, but behind saying me this saying me tht. Okay, ive to say, thks for leaving all thse good memories behind, sometimes i'd peep into thse messages you sent, looking back of how much often we talked on phone everyday, how we used to at least sent each other a text everyday, but things are really fucking changing. I remember onces, i was wrking at epson, i totally dont have the time for you, but at last you still called me, remember of how much we'd miss each other just of one day nvr contact, and i can feel tht im so missed by you. But despite all tht we're busy, in the end you were the one who're taking effort to ring me up tht day. Its not me tht had changed, its you, and i hope tht you are aware of it. Ask another sis of ours, who's thn really the one tht changing, you you and you! Totally disapointed. I knw, yeah. You ring me up, but i always say thse hurting words to you, im sorry. Ive such a fuck up attitude, but girl. In the past, i was the only one who could made you happy whenever you're unhappy, but now? Look, things ain't the same anymre. Im human being, i feel the heat too. I didnt knw how to meet you face to face, i dont have the face to face you alone myself. I dont knw how could things be like, would i tear infrnt of you? You nvr went to find a reason behind it, instead you just said all tht you think it is. Dont say whenever im down, i ring you up you stood up for me. I stood up for you too. Ask yourself... just ask yourself. When things haven change, who were really the one always accompany you through everything? When ahwei went in, who were the one early morning wake up just to acc you to his court, when ahwei was inside, whose were the one almost everyday cheering you up, giving you strength to go on, telling you its not the end. You just simply stop and read at all this, im sure you'd tear... Who were the one tht acc you to bring ahwei out? Despite you were the siaocheebye early morning come my hse wake me up, laughs. But despite me being so tired, i still tired to pulled myself up. I bath and went out without combing my hair, without putting on make up. Everything do at cab.... just put in a lil effort to stop and see all this, you'll definitely miss everything. Cos i miss it too, miss thse time being so close, whenever you're sad, you look me up. Whenever you needed me, im sure, i were the one always by your side. Who stood up for each other more, it doesnt matter. And, just bear in mind, you nvr knw how things could be like, you nvr knw a person true colour. And, if you're telling me on msn tht ive a new sis, if you're refering to kahleng, girl. Im sorry, yes. She's my sister, why do you've to put it in a unglum way? Wht new sister? All along ppl knw tht ive always dote on this sis of mine... she's worth everything tht you worth too. Althought i knw her for less thn a year, but it doesnt matter, its how much ive went through with her all this while. I thank god for her, i believe and trust tht, im a good sis of her. I stood up by her almost everyday in the past when she were having the most tought time of her life carrying tht lil boy in her tummy. And all tht effort tht i done, it didnt went dwn to the drain. Even tot, she's leaving at bedok, im leaving at hougang, we can hardly be like everyday meeting up, but she and i nvr fail to take the effort to text each other, and we'd always spare each other time to meet up for shopping, chitchat and anything we could do. She and i do quarrel too, not only me and you and jessie i quarreled with before. Quarrel actually are nothing big deal, it make our bond strnger, does it? So, i sincerly hope, you wont say tht anymre. At last, whtever both of us said, the hole are still thr. So... i wish you all the best. And bear in mind, im always a phone call away still and always. I really fucking dont knw wht to say, why did all of us landed into this kinda of states? Why do people have to change? Wht are the reasons behind it? I give up, i give up.......At grn, its not tht i dont wanna pick up your call, its my phone spoil k, dont mistaken things. And who ever said i was letting go of this sistership? Nobody, it was you. It was fate tht bought us tgt, fate tht made us being tgt so close after gng through so many up and dwns. Remember we wasnt good to each other when we first knw each other? How much effort we put tgt in the past... I wont deny tht i often tell people of how much you really dote on me. But, i guess its over. You no longer does tht anymre. True sis are, no matter how much often your doesnt meet, the heart are still close knitted tgt. And and and, last but not least. I gave up on love(: Wednesday, January 14, 2009, 9:40 PM
Thursday, 15January, 09.hello . im in school blogging right now . ahneo is beside me ! she's so act cuteee , but still love her to the max . yesterday , lying on bed . couldnt sleep at all . i guess many were awake by my msg . i msg super duper wuper alot ppl ! even thse tht were onces very dearly to me (: thks to thse who replied my msg . i was really super bored ~:x kind of missing someone which i shldnt missed . okay , well . nvrmind . woke up at 8am plus today and bath and off i went to meet my dearest bitchy koh shuiching and ahneeeooo ! we slacked at 928 despite being late already . pei thm smoke and three of us were very happy , knw why ? cos its the first time of the year three of us attend sch tgt ;D im happy too ! soooooo ... had lessons &everything . today pe , went running ! xD haha . so , in about 1-2 period time and i'll be back home ! weeeets . sorry lah , i cant be ur best sis . i cant be the one you asked or wished for . in times we can be good , but in times , everything changed . i guess the problem doesnt lie on me . its you tht had changed . you shld be aware of everything ? things are getting so complicated now . althought now all of us drifted , all of us can feel the hole . even others can replace us , thn im sorry (: our memories will remain always . takecare girl ~ 8:27 AM
Love my beloved baby javiour &kelvin. Monday, 12January, 09. .jpg) .jpg) .jpg) .jpg) .jpg) .jpg) .jpg) .jpg) Trip to singapore zoo Saturday, 1January, 09.              to you this 2 person , let me tell you , one mre time , i believe . just onces more you come make my sister or anyone of us , i believe we'll giveyou hell . if you ever step till my 2sisters tail , i cfm give you hell too , alot other hate you too . so i believe they'd support us . we dont own you anything , we dont own you a life . stop giving us this kinda of attitude and stop saying all of us . we really seriously dont OWN YOU A LIFE please (; i really dont understand why ? why are you ppl behaving this way ? why are your doing things till this way ? i really cant stand it anymore ! just onces mre ! :\ and my dearest ahgong , please takecare of yourself . im sorry ! i dont have the time to visit you ! soon soon soon alright ? xD loveyou ! 8:18 AM
Wednesday, 14January, 09.didnt went to sch ? haha , morning mom woke me up and i went to living room slp and woke up at almost 4pm plus ? power righhht ! computer awhile and prepare went to take bus to junction8 to repair my phone ! xDd like finally , really dam happy . cos my G900 has been rotting at home for superly long already :X thn suppose to be like usual i took 88 thn after tht jessie , end up she action , haha . tot i board the bus already and she go up . lol , end up meet at j8 bus stop ! thn headed to repair phone . was serve by jaleena , tot she could gimme thse weird looking ? end up she's really very friendly . she even helped me changed my battery into a new one ;) actually i wanted to go get a new one already ! thks (; and walk walk and left at 7pm plus ? reached home only , uncle came and fetch us to the songka thr . anddd soo now , 12am plus ! just reached home . ive many photos to update ! i miss you , i miss you , i miss you , i miss you , i miss you . i miss you , i miss you , i miss you , i miss you , i miss you . i miss you , i miss you , i miss you , i miss you , i miss you . i miss you , i miss you , i miss you , i miss you , i miss you . i miss you , i miss you , i miss you , i miss you , i miss you . 4:00 AM
Tuesday, 13January, 09.went to sch as usual , went off at lower sec time . before 2pm and nigel and eugene came fetch us . me and shuiching ? thn point to eat and bus dwn to grn to do my medicure . after tht till late evening my precious girl ....... KAHLENG came and find me at hg grn , very first time . she reached and thn we went to pei her do her nails also . thn to eat our dinner . after tht show her who is who cos she also curious to knw as i always tell her my stuffs bt she dont knw who is who only see before pic . thn went to zhonshen hse dwnstairs as smth happened . thn some nigel &co left for songka . thn dont knw pop out of somewhere jiayang came and thn ahdi , xianfu and kaizhang all eat wrng medicine ! keep disturb me :X thn told kahleng tht is jy . she v haoqi v excited to see him righhhht ? cos she heard ppl say jy pic mre handsome ! LAUGHS * thn she wanna see her real life ? nw shw you already , happy ? lololols . thn went off , she came my hse ! and thn not long 9pm plus acc her to wait for bus and went home bath thn i went dwn grn after tht ah him came and meet me (; slack awhile left at around 1pm plus ? theodore was kind enuff to acc me walked till hg park nearby thr ! reached hme &slp . Monday, January 12, 2009, 4:35 PM
Tuesday, 13January, 09.okay , in school blogging now . sch is fucking bored . jessie didnt come sch again ! boring ~ okay , well yesterday after blogging computer awhile and went to prepare and bus to fetch ahgong and we went to our uncle funeral , saw my aunty , and it was so hurtful to see thm this way . everything is so sudden , nobody expect it this way ? reached at 5plus and left at late night 11pm plus . i gonna go repair my phone later on ! xD yesterday as i lied dwn on my bed , i looked through thse messages . i still have thse messages in my old memory card . and i really miss you alot alot , i swear . but , whts the point ? pointless .... if time could turn back , i'd promised i'll nvr treat you the way i used to treat you . i'd treat you alot better . i'd nvr do things behind your back , i'd nvr lie to you . i'll make everything just as perfect as it nvr come true . will you onces again turn back ? i miss thse time alot alot ! do you ? ;( Sunday, January 11, 2009, 11:01 PM
To you this fucking bitch, i hope when you read this you knw tht im refering to you! But if you dont.... too bad! Wake your sense up man! Fucking bitch, slut, whtever tht best describe you! Weather i wanna patch up with him or not does not concern about you! Why bother so much bitch? So funny is it? Laugh right infrnt of me? Bitch, remember few year back wht you did to me and my exs? Properly, this are all heaven plans and ur retribution! Remember? WHAT GOES AROUND, COMES AROUND! ;DMonday, 12January, 09. okay , enuff of my venting anger . i didnt went to sch as i slept very late last night . and now is already 3pm plus , gonna go bath prepare and go for the songka already ! hope everything is fine . and i recieved a phone call just as soon as im awake , bf told me gong got into a accident , dont knw to believe or not ! haha , ohaya . last bt nt least , ytd my dearest kahleng's bf is v funny and cute can ! haha , he msg me and ask me abt mac delivery no ! said kahleng wanna eat mac , lolols . funny uh ! ;D TRICIA ANG ; we dont seems to be like wht we're anymore . we dont seems to share our unhappiness and happiness anymore . you and i have really drifted alot , i admit . but whenever we're looking up the sky could things still be the same , i wonder . this feeling tht is so fuck up , you'll nvr knw . CHERIE ; siaocheebye , miss you leh . miss wrking , rounding , gossip and everything with you lah ! when gonna meet up again ? tag me when you see this ^^, JESSIE NEO ; ahya you this asshole , no point writing to you ! cos you dont like reading blog ? haha . and , we've our promises made . and im seeing you almost everything ? so .... hope thing goes well ! lovelovelove . JENNIFER KOK SHUICHING ; as for you , nothing to say luh ! dont knw how to change ur mind ? please go to sch more more more more often ! WU KAHLENG ; hello bitch , muacks ! love you x100000000000000 . 11:57 AM
Trip to Palau Ubin! Choonlu &Jiawen  Jiaxin &Jiawen. And... looks whose behind? Lol, val &sok.  On the boat..  P.Jiaxin! ;D Okay, im so fat! =( .JPG) Valarie &Jiaxin. .JPG)  Val, lu, sok, jx, jw. Loves ;P  I swear, haha. Its fucking scary playing this. I hold very rightly on thm! Haha. Sok miss out the fun! She didnt want to cycle dwn the slope to this so call 'playgrd' here! =(  They had a hard time balancing it! ;P  See lu shirt, play until many sweat! Haha.  See our tiny face? :X  I wonder where's sok &jiawen? -,-  Trip to S'pore Zoo! (There's only 2! All at val cam, will upload it again yeah!) Jiaxin, Choonlu, Jiawen.   Saturday, 10January, 09. Linny and me! @Valarie hse, and thks for the tshirt, otherwise im gonna wear my long seelveee and hot to death! Haha. .jpg) .jpg) .jpg) .jpg) Friday, 9January, 09. Hello bitch love you to the max! .jpg) .jpg) .jpg) .jpg) Happy birthday my beloved bro, loving you as always.     I couldnt sleep so.... come blogging! But i think im tired already, its 4:18am right nw, i wonder how am i gonna go sch later on? :P frm ytd till now ive blog 4times already ! POWER :D |
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