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♥ J I A X I N there's nothing wrong with my name. You'll always be a part of me. Hot-temper girl, easily jealous. Loves shopping, taking photos. Who dont? Grey, black, white, purple, pink(: Fifteen, schooling and Friendster Mickey(s) & Minnie(s) lover Pokka grntea &Cookies &cream cho.(: &Loves those who deserve my love, If you think you know me, read my blog and think again. I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life. ♥♥♥ More thn words.
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Thursday, January 15, 2009, 5:35 AM
Short and simple, one and for all, and i'll nvr go brood over all this anymore. I dont knw how am i feeling. But all you've to knw is, doesnt mean tht i kept silence, does not mean tht i dont care. I really dont knw, guess im numb by every single things already. I dont care wht other wanna say or gossip about me anymre, cos i knw myself, thse tht gossip about me are ppl around you, not me. People around me are all treating me very well. At least they're not unreasonable, they dont act like nothing infrnt of me, but behind saying me this saying me tht. Okay, ive to say, thks for leaving all thse good memories behind, sometimes i'd peep into thse messages you sent, looking back of how much often we talked on phone everyday, how we used to at least sent each other a text everyday, but things are really fucking changing. I remember onces, i was wrking at epson, i totally dont have the time for you, but at last you still called me, remember of how much we'd miss each other just of one day nvr contact, and i can feel tht im so missed by you. But despite all tht we're busy, in the end you were the one who're taking effort to ring me up tht day. Its not me tht had changed, its you, and i hope tht you are aware of it. Ask another sis of ours, who's thn really the one tht changing, you you and you! Totally disapointed. I knw, yeah. You ring me up, but i always say thse hurting words to you, im sorry. Ive such a fuck up attitude, but girl. In the past, i was the only one who could made you happy whenever you're unhappy, but now? Look, things ain't the same anymre. Im human being, i feel the heat too. I didnt knw how to meet you face to face, i dont have the face to face you alone myself. I dont knw how could things be like, would i tear infrnt of you? You nvr went to find a reason behind it, instead you just said all tht you think it is. Dont say whenever im down, i ring you up you stood up for me. I stood up for you too. Ask yourself... just ask yourself. When things haven change, who were really the one always accompany you through everything? When ahwei went in, who were the one early morning wake up just to acc you to his court, when ahwei was inside, whose were the one almost everyday cheering you up, giving you strength to go on, telling you its not the end. You just simply stop and read at all this, im sure you'd tear... Who were the one tht acc you to bring ahwei out? Despite you were the siaocheebye early morning come my hse wake me up, laughs. But despite me being so tired, i still tired to pulled myself up. I bath and went out without combing my hair, without putting on make up. Everything do at cab.... just put in a lil effort to stop and see all this, you'll definitely miss everything. Cos i miss it too, miss thse time being so close, whenever you're sad, you look me up. Whenever you needed me, im sure, i were the one always by your side. Who stood up for each other more, it doesnt matter. And, just bear in mind, you nvr knw how things could be like, you nvr knw a person true colour. And, if you're telling me on msn tht ive a new sis, if you're refering to kahleng, girl. Im sorry, yes. She's my sister, why do you've to put it in a unglum way? Wht new sister? All along ppl knw tht ive always dote on this sis of mine... she's worth everything tht you worth too. Althought i knw her for less thn a year, but it doesnt matter, its how much ive went through with her all this while. I thank god for her, i believe and trust tht, im a good sis of her. I stood up by her almost everyday in the past when she were having the most tought time of her life carrying tht lil boy in her tummy. And all tht effort tht i done, it didnt went dwn to the drain. Even tot, she's leaving at bedok, im leaving at hougang, we can hardly be like everyday meeting up, but she and i nvr fail to take the effort to text each other, and we'd always spare each other time to meet up for shopping, chitchat and anything we could do. She and i do quarrel too, not only me and you and jessie i quarreled with before. Quarrel actually are nothing big deal, it make our bond strnger, does it? So, i sincerly hope, you wont say tht anymre. At last, whtever both of us said, the hole are still thr. So... i wish you all the best. And bear in mind, im always a phone call away still and always. I really fucking dont knw wht to say, why did all of us landed into this kinda of states? Why do people have to change? Wht are the reasons behind it? I give up, i give up.......At grn, its not tht i dont wanna pick up your call, its my phone spoil k, dont mistaken things. And who ever said i was letting go of this sistership? Nobody, it was you. It was fate tht bought us tgt, fate tht made us being tgt so close after gng through so many up and dwns. Remember we wasnt good to each other when we first knw each other? How much effort we put tgt in the past... I wont deny tht i often tell people of how much you really dote on me. But, i guess its over. You no longer does tht anymre. True sis are, no matter how much often your doesnt meet, the heart are still close knitted tgt. And and and, last but not least. I gave up on love(: |
